Craziness...

Life's seemed kinda weird lately.  I don't really know why.  It's been great... things have been going really well... but it's just been kinda confusing... mixed emotions and stuff.  It's been a while since I've written about something serious and I've missed it.  I've realized that it really helps me to write out my thoughts, to "think out loud" if you will.  It helps me sort things out and figure out what I'm really thinking.  Anyway, things are just weird...  It seems like there's something I'm missing, some target that I'm flying right past without even noticing it.  It just seems like I'm not doing enough... like it's time, in the midst of the daily step by step life, to jump... to reach out... to change a life (maybe mine) somehow.  Even as I write this I think... in the past month or so has my life been outstanding for Christ, or have I simply been cruising along?  I'm afraid the answer is that I've been cruising.  I think that's where this confusion is coming from.  I feel like I need to jump but I don't know where or how high.  I want to see lives changed, people touched, Christ simply working through me, but I feel like I'm just taking one step after another without any thought or action.  I feel lazy by just sitting around and waiting, but waiting isn't always easy.  I believe the Bible and I believe that sometimes that's what you have to do.  So I guess right now all I can do is pray, study, get to know my Savior more and more... and wait.

Isaiah 40:31

"but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength;
   they shall mount up with wings like eagles;
they shall run and not be weary;
   they shall walk and not faint."

It's time to wait.  To pray.  To say, "Here am I, send me" and see where I go.

All this so that, "All the earth will sing Your praise, the moon and stars, the sun and rain..."

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